22 october - - - ~ you don't know, but you want to be treated like you would know as if the treatment would ensure you being right, harmonious & complete in your knowledge, as if your structure would come after the space the space, the structure of the space - your structure, your space of your structure the treatment, the right, the widening along your idea, along your structure, if that structure is rotten ... by foreign structure has your structure to grow, have you to grow your structure, your structure cannot be found, it has to be grown (.) rights & duties ).( - <<< right >>> growing space along your structure, ||| duty ||| demand for your structure, for your self assertion >>> pressure <<< if you have fallen behind your duty to assert & perform your structure structure builds quality of space - the quality of space sucks structure / absent structure | en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quasicrys… http://t.co/xcUgCBYv absent - special sort of, not the lack of - the being, the existence/life existence is essence is life already, any existence is life, there is nothing that is not life but the being is not the existence, the being is the presence, it can be without existence all that, current estimation of its reality 80% quasiperiodical structure | en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Snow_… http://t.co/GFHkyjVY a space of a quality of a structure, which is determined to take any quality, to transform into any structure, the restructuring quality life & existence is a structure only, the name "existence" is misleading, there is nothing that it can stand out of it (ex sistere), the name "life" doesn't tell anything helpful how it is done or what's the sense, the aim of it *note : as before, to be successful tells nothing about being right, it tells just about the ability to press or be sucked onto outside *note : it's the ability to multiply the existent, nothing about the quality of that existent or its harmony with oneself, so beneficiality or maliciousness towards oneself &/or life itself or even being so can being be destroyed, existence can, by changing its structure but being is of a structure of no special structure & all possible structures, it contains all & nothing, which both are in the same stroke it sounds contradictory just if it's presumed as static, premade, ready & unchangeable, unchanged, in an existent way life(let) - leben (kleben) --- z.ycie, vita, witac'("welcome"), viva, bios > z.ycie - gita, gate, gone, go - get, gap - ginnungagap get >>> - gap <<< - as beat / bic' / beten (schlagen) - big, gib, bib?, beben? ginnungagap - the gap - gasp ("to yawn"), gape, gaffen, to be but not participate in the present action, to be of no apparent structure to be not engaged & not to be able to win, not to be able to get anything at all, not to clasp (kleben), not to hold not to be reflective within itself, without having learned the act a self observation, of self reflection > reflection, to be not multifacetted - problem with the mirror stage - contemplation is not something that happens by itself, one has to engage in it, there is nothing that will happen, which can be expected either one is dragging it, asking for it, or it won't ever come, either one is empty enough to take it, or it has no space to be to ask because of no reason, not to ask because of expectations, expectations are preoccupied space already, unable to contain contemplation those are two actions in one stroke, to be empty & to be engaged, not to be occupied already but to be keen & ready to be occupied to gawk is not to be ready to take & not to be aware of gawking or anything at all to gawk is to be the action happening, to be not in two places at once, not to be acting & watching the own act in one but to JUST WATCH, as to JUST ACT - so there is a lack of either one needed movement within the same channel, towards outside towards inside to be & to watch to be if you are not acting just watching, what do you watch then, you have to be, to act & you have to bet, to estimate, to risk being wrong to be conscious is to act & to watch acting, to bet to be able to be in a certain structure/way/quality before acting on behalf of that aim without betting there is no acting, so what is there to be watched, pure being is not to be watched at all cause there is indeed no watcher still 80% real, content of illusion 20% pretentious - pre tension - pre occupated space by tension - so tension makes structure, tension is the tendency towards aims - sinew & sin intriguing - intrusive - intending - intensive - - - - - - - - - reflectingarea Ra intriguing - intrusive - intending - intensive 11 hours ago reflectingarea Ra pretentious - pre tension - pre occupated space by tension - so tension makes structure, tension is the tendency towards aims - sinew & sin 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra still 80% real, content of illusion 20% 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra without betting there is no acting, so what is there to be watched, pure being is not to be watched at all cause there is indeed no watcher 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to be conscious is to act & to watch acting, to bet to be able to be in a certain structure/way/quality before acting on behalf of that aim 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra if you are not acting just watching, what do you watch then, you have to be, to act & you have to bet, to estimate, to risk being wrong 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to be & to watch to be 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra but to JUST WATCH, as to JUST ACT - so there is a lack of either one needed movement within the same channel, towards outside towards inside 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to gawk is to be the action happening, to be not in two places at once, not to be acting & watching the own act in one 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to gawk is not to be ready to take & not to be aware of gawking or anything at all 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra those are two actions in one stroke, to be empty & to be engaged, not to be occupied already but to be keen & ready to be occupied 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to ask because of no reason, not to ask because of expectations, expectations are preoccupied space already, unable to contain contemplation 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra either one is dragging it, asking for it, or it won't ever come, either one is empty enough to take it, or it has no space to be 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra contemplation is not something that happens by itself, one has to engage in it, there is nothing that will happen, which can be expected 12 hours ago reflectingarea Ra > reflection, to be not multifacetted - problem with the mirror stage - 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra not to be reflective within itself, without having learned the act a self observation, of self reflection 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra to be not engaged & not to be able to win, not to be able to get anything at all, not to clasp (kleben), not to hold 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra ginnungagap - the gap - gasp ("to yawn"), gape, gaffen, to be but not participate in the present action, to be of no apparent structure 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra get >>> - gap <<< - as beat / bic' / beten (schlagen) - big, gib, bib?, beben? 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra life(let) - leben (kleben) --- z.ycie, vita, witac'("welcome"), viva, bios > z.ycie - gita, gate, gone, go - get, gap - ginnungagap 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra it sounds contradictory just if it's presumed as static, premade, ready & unchangeable, unchanged, in an existent way 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra but being is of a structure of no special structure & all possible structures, it contains all & nothing, which both are in the same stroke 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra so can being be destroyed, existence can, by changing its structure 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra its harmony with oneself, so beneficiality or maliciousness towards oneself &/or life itself or even being 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra *note : it's the ability to multiply the existent, nothing about the quality of that existent or 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra *note : as before, to be successful tells nothing about being right, it tells just about the ability to press or be sucked onto outside 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra the name "life" doesn't tell anything helpful how it is done or what's the sense, the aim of it 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra life & existence is a structure only, the name "existence" is misleading, there is nothing that it can stand out of it (ex sistere), 13 hours ago reflectingarea Ra a space of a quality of a structure, which is determined to take any quality, to transform into any structure, the restructuring quality 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra quasiperiodical structure | en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Snow_… http://t.co/GFHkyjVY 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra all that, current estimation of its reality 80% 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra but the being is not the existence, the being is the presence, it can be without existence 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra existence is essence is life already, any existence is life, there is nothing that is not life 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra absent - special sort of, not the lack of - the being, the existence/life 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra structure builds quality of space - the quality of space sucks structure / absent structure | en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quasicrys… http://t.co/xcUgCBYv 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra >>> pressure <<< if you have fallen behind your duty to assert & perform your structure 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra (.) rights & duties ).( - <<< right >>> growing space along your structure, ||| duty ||| demand for your structure, for your self assertion 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra has your structure to grow, have you to grow your structure, your structure cannot be found, it has to be grown 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra the treatment, the right, the widening along your idea, along your structure, if that structure is rotten ... by foreign structure 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra the space, the structure of the space - your structure, your space of your structure 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra as if the treatment would ensure you being right, harmonious & complete in your knowledge, as if your structure would come after the space 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra you don't know, but you want to be treated like you would know 14 hours ago reflectingarea Ra ~ 14 hours ago